I Have A Vague Idea...

Last week was a little confused, I had so many problems and misunderstandings that i really wanted to erase Thursday and Friday from the face of Earth.


My mom got sick and almost died and I think I lost a important person, I have that idea, after all, I lost contact and because of a stupid question I asked. I wish I cold have managed better that situation but i act out of fear, I might be wrong, I hope I´m wrong but I can´t talk to her and tomorrow, a fantastic and beautiful present I sent to her will arrive, she will get it and I really don´t know if she will accept or even will want any of my presents, I really don´t know and I fear that, she is a great friend and since, we´ve been without talking for almost three days and I only got one e-mail responding from her, indicating nothing.


I´m really sad and down, I can´t believe I´ll lose her, out chats and everything. I´m.. I´ve been trying to face that possibility, of not be able to talk to her but it´s so hard, so hurting that I can´t even be awake, and there is my mom, still sick and facing a disease.


I have to wait, tomorrow will be the day, after all, she will have to respond if the present arrived and I was, am so happy giving her that and now it, it´s my life, after all, I´m sorrow´s native son (Thanks Morrisey for the title).


Today will be long and painful night, and tomorrow too, the day will be like today, full of uncertainties and fear, I lost her, I´m quite sure and unlike my dubious thought tricks on me, she will never talk to me again.

Róisín Murphy.

This Sunday, as usual, I had nothing better to do, after reforming my studio, not a reforming, just change and cleaning up, I ended up like always, nothing better to do so, another time for the 10,000,000 times I listened Róisín Murphy.


It´s been like a habit, since i discovered her more than a year ago, back when I had no problem and I wasn´t that down, waiting for someone who will never come anyway, I can´t help myself, It´s like automatic, her songs have a positive power over me, when I need energy I listen and I´m ready for another day.


I really want to see her live, I´ve never had the chance and I hope she comes to Brazil someday, or I can go to UK or wherever place she is playing. It´s a dream I want to make come true.


One again Róisín, thanks for making my day bearable and pleasant, after all, we don´t know each other but like your song says, my favorite song by the way, You know me better than I know myself, you know me the best.

I Hate Sundays!

I HATE SUNDAYS! It´s notorious, I really do. Since early age I associate Sunday with bad and sick things, I have my reasons and sickness is one of the related things that make Sunday a bad day to me.


It´s also the worst day to watch TV. Yeah! Here we have those re-runs of the weak´s TV series and the traditional Program Silvio Santos ( Silvio Santos Show). Which I hate from the guts.


At least, Sunday is almost ending, only 4 hours to go but while I´m writing it, will kill some time .


Well, It´s okay, Sunday is necessary, to balance the World order and to permit workers to have a resting day but no matter, I hate Sunday and I will always hate. I believe I will, I´m not sure.


I´m always worried about a friend, which is making the day a little more difficult to digest or to endure but It´s okay, I think so.