?

Well, that´s what is a constant in my life these days, a question mark and you ask why? I´ll answer you.

Nothing seens to go right, everything I try to do ends up in a massive failure or an incomp´lete task, may it´s my fault, after all, iot´s my life although some of those involved others. still, my faul for making some of those people part of it, not to mention a... forget it!

I need to see new people, to meet new faces, I´m tired of the same routine, the same face I´ve been seeing for ages and I NEED a change, a total make over in my life but am I capable of doing it?

...To be continued.

Happy Birthday Craig!

Last year, when I joined Twitter, I was lucky to my first follower became one of my closest and best friend, her name is Emma, better known as @beingnobody. A little after, someone named @thecraigmorris started following me, it was cool, another follower but I had no idea that name would become more than just a follower, Craig became my best friend.

I could say, for sure that was a fantastic thing in my life when I joined twitter because I made some amazing friends, a great group which my dearest Craig is part of. He and his partner in crime Emma, I can´t love one and not the other, they complete each other, like two in one, both Emma and Craig were and are so good to me, since day one, talking to me, helping me , putting up with some problems I had and leading me to the right direction, but it´s Craig´s day so, I´ll being sweet with him.lol! Sorry Emma.

I love Craig, I´m not shy to say that, he is fantastic and I could marry him in no time. LOL! I´m joking Emma, I like the blonde ones. lol! It´s a big joke but I love him, as the fantastic friend he is, the adorable person he is and for being so amiable, sweet and extraordinary to me. This year, I will finally meet him, Emma, Leanne, Billy, Laura and the rest of my Twitter Tribe, he named us this way, he is so clever. We´ll party every day, every night and I´m counting the hours to take the plain and go to London.

I´m crying while I´m writing this but it´s ok, I made this entry/present to homage him, it´s a big joke, like the old Follow Friday Comics I used to do and next week ( I hope) a new one will be done and the tradition will return so, I hope you like it, I hope Emma like too because I did the last one for her, so, don´t be jealous Craig, she loves you and I´ll go to your wedding and I´ll make the speech, please, let me do it. lol!

Happy Birthday Big C, Lord Morris, Mister Morris, Craig, all ways I call you but there is one I´ll call you for the rest of my life, my best friend.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRAIG!!!

Baby Gaga

Last week, on a Brazilian TV Show called "Qual é o seu talento", it´s the local version of "America´s got talent", was shown the performance of a little girl, the 8-year old Laura Montana ( What?)and became an instant hit, here and across the World ( as some says). I only watched that in the next day, when a friend showed me that and indeed the child has talent, she sung in English, a good one by the way and danced, of course she is just a kid but you know, TV audience loves those gifted kids and so the host and the jury and that mad me wonder: This children exposition/exploitation is really health for the children and for us?


I know without it, we didn´t have names such as Shirley Temple, Elizabeth Taylor, Judy Garland, Leonardo De Caprio the Olsen twins and many others but I think a young kid has to be one, without worries, without those endless hours of rehearsals, exposition to the masses, paparazzis and all what comes with fame.What this exposition might bring for this young girl in the future? I´m not this kid´s parents (thank God) and I really don´t care about it, at all, after all, it´s good for all parts, the TV station will gain audience with her performance so money in the pocket, the parents, will fulfill their dreams of being famous or at least have a famous kids so, money in the pocket and the kid, which I´m not sure if it´s the case, will have her dose of fame and spotlight so, money in the others´pocket.


Maybe, when Lady Gaga comes to Brazil, in May, she can meet her young version and who knows, take the kid to be part of her tour, to open her shows or even sing bad Romance, a duet, this is show business, if even Gaga is a hit, why not this kid, even imitates Gaga, can show her talent.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xc_k6V-Ozvw

Words... Can Kill Sometimes.

That´s true, they can but this time, one single word saved me and that word was ignorant.



I´m not ignorant, at all but the way a certain person, which I used to have some love for her said that, yesterday to be exactly, really destroyed me, how dreadful that word sounded, they way she wrote, willing to hurt me,waiting for me to read it but if it was her intention, it worked other way around, it set me free.


Strange how a person, who you treated like a person, with love, respect and in a cherish way likes to be treated different, how so? Well, that person likes, after all she is a pile of manure that I tried to treat like an orchid.


Better still, I can move one without any regret or sadness, she helped me realized how stupid I was, trying to gain her heart, to be notice, by a not worth individual, who only acted me up, treated me like someone, like her peels, which I am not. I´m guilt too, I forced a situation, I tried to make her love me, which I´m quite sure this word, doesn´t belong in her vocabulary.


Unlike me, which I know the meaning and how to use the word "love" properly, I´m so happy to see that person behind me, way behind me like that The Primitive song, I really accomplished something with this thing, to see who people is by it´s look, and to be prepared more, to see through people, their true colours so, I want to say only one thing to finish it for good...



FUCK YOU!!!!!


See, words can express feelings too.

Manga Fair.

Last Sunday, yesterday to be true, I went to a Manga fair, I have to confess, I´m not a big Manga/Anime fan but I decided to go, after all, the trip was good and I was going to hunt a present to a nice friend, in fact, I only got two and the real present wasn´t possible to get but I will, it´s just a matter of time.



There was a huge line, I wasn´t expecting so many fans but they showed up, dressed as their favorite characters, even a girl dressed as Harry Potter was in line. I don´t know how she survived, after that huge heat and sunny day. My luck I brought my press card so, no line for me.



The place wasn´t that good but it was big so the fans go walk through there without any problem. The only problem was that red light. I felt I was in a strip joint or something, after I left, I had a huge headache, other fans were complaining too but besides that was good.


Now, the booths, where you could by your Manga, Anime or anything else you could imagine. I tried to fid my friend´s present, I only got 2 DVDs for her, the main present wasn´t possible. I was sad about it, after all, I want to give her that but that arse was charging it for $5.000,00 which I will get for less than $ 200,00. Ah! There was also video games so you could play but i wasn´t in a mood and those lines...


It was a good Sunday after all , I had some fun, went to a good event, even though I´m not a big manga/Anime fan but I had some fun, watching those fans being themselves, free from others to judge them, being fans. Maybe I´ll attempt to other events like this, at least, I´ll again, have a good time.


Don´t forget the photos, not good ones but you can see the event.

Kathy, Kathy, Kathy...Everywhere!

What can I say? Kathy is eveyrwhere and I have to say it´s something really great!


I´m joking about that, I really love her, she is a amazing friend, since we first met, again I´ll say that, we became friends instantly. That´s great but I won´t say that agin, I´m kind of repetitive and It´s not what I want to write this time.



I´m feeling she is a little depressing, a little down, I know the feeling, I was like that for a little while and she needs a little incentive, a little booters to help her get through it and be herself again, be my BFF, my good and always happy and outgoing Kathy.



During my dark times, I know I acted up, I really bothered her with that thing still, unlike give her back or just give her back, she stood up for me, she helped me to see I was a jerk, I did everything to dstroy me but I´m saw that on time, and I coped with that problem and now I´m back on track again.



That´s why I´m writtibg this, to maker her fell better, to see my friend back, my happy Kathy, I love our chats, our talking, her virtual gifts and now her PM on Facebook. We need to use our traditional point, you know where, but this new way of comunication is amazing as well.


I know one day we´ll meet, I´ll go to your state to meet you, it´s just a matter of time, my big aroung the World trip will cost me a fortune but will be worth. Speacilly when I arrive and see my BFF, waiting for me, to finally see her gorgeous face and extraordinary personality.



What can I say, I love her, she is my BFF, my confident and my adorable friend so... I love you Kathy, never doubt that and next time, I hope I cxan write something better than this poor entry but I´m sure you´ll love it.


Kisses and Hugs my beloved.


Claude.

Brand New Day?

Well, that only worked with Spider-Man, after he cut that deal with Mephisto and started over, free from his mistakes from the past, even thought he "deal" kind of backfired, after all, instead of moving on, he is what he always was, a "loser". I´m going to put the comic book analogy aside, after all, my point can have something in common but not that much.


I agree things is a little better, since last week but I feel, I´ve been feeling like I´m walking in circles, that I´ve been walking in circles, Have I? Unfortunately I am.


It´s pretty funny and even peculiar, when we (in my case I) want something so bad that we create a illusion, a fantasy that only we (I) can see it. Little by little I´ve been seeing it, day by day it´s been showing to me what I want, what I desire is just an illusion, pure and simple.


The difference between I want and I will have is huge, like miles and miles and no matter how much I walk through it, I´ll never get there, when I´m just about there, it goes fast and I lose touch.


Como eu queria poder saber se ela gosta de mim, mesmo ela dizendo que sim (mentira).


That´s the point, I will never get that illusion, always , like that the Primitives song: I almost touched you, always, always, always...