Aging.

This is life and I am aging. Well, in a few weeks I will be a little older, one year older than now. Am I worried? Yes, a little but I can´t reverse it or even stop the process, not until I become a vampire, who knows Vampire Pam comes and bit me and turn me into a vampire and her sexual slave, hahahah! Seriously, I am a little worried about it, just a little.


Today, while I was in the subway, I thought about that, about my life and what is coming this new year of my life so , I decided to make a little list of things I will do this year, after my birthday. My top 5 things I want and I will do, maybe sounds a little stupid or even so pointless but I had nothing else to do during the ride so, here my list:


1- Publish my novel(s): Yeah, I hope now I can publish all or at least one of my novels. This time I m going to publish and become a author.

2- Travel to UK and USA: Well, I hope I can travel to UK first to meet some good friends I have there, both England and Scotland. I´ve been planing this but I am sure I will finally travel, I am feeling it.

3-Meet a nice girl: That´s something I really want to happen, to meet someone who loves me and wants to spend her time with me. Let´s see if this year I can finally meet my soulmate or at least a nice and beautiful girl.

4-Earn more money to do number 2: Well, without it, I believe will be totally difficult and impossible to travel .

5-Built my own studio: Yeah, I really designed my studio where I can write and store all my comics and books but again, I need that number 4 be fulfilled or will be impossible to do that too.


Let´s see if I can fulfill all or at least three items of this list or I will have to continue to pursuit it next year... NO!

Face Tags.

Last night, in fact some hours ago, I had a pretty strange dream, I don´t dream very often, I never dream in fact, only when I am nervous, when I am going to do something special on the next day and from time to time, like last night.


Well, I was a in a big garden, and there were a party there, I had no idea who or what was the party for, but I decided to walk around, to see if I might find out or if I could see someone that I know.I start seeing some people but they didn´t have faces, just name tags in their face´s place. Pretty unusual and bizarre, I felt totally freaked and afraid because I couldn´t see their expressions, just names and no name was familiar to me.


More ahead, I saw two friends, Emma and Craig, well, I saw their names, their twitter names so I could see they were Emma and Craig. We talked for a while but for them, the fact that they didn´t have faces weren´t an issue in fact I believe they didn´t know about that and if they were seeing me like I was seeing them? I was too mesmerized to even ask that question, we continued to talk.


Suddenly, I was in a different place in that garden but now, alone, no one was there, near me or in the surrounded area and I continued wondering what was going on and out of sudden, I saw a little pond and I tried, to see myself through the pond´s reflexion and ... I just woke up. Well, trying to figure out what I just saw in my dream but I believe it will be an answer I will never have.


I am not an expert in dreams or even know what I might mean because they say all dreams is based or something, in our hidden sub-conscience but I will try to read on a book to see but I really don´t care, at least I woke up, which was a pretty good thing and also to have the chance to talk to Emma and Craig.


I hope next night I return to my regular non dreams routine or at least I dream of some gorgeous girl trying to marry me, would be great.

Farewell Moon Shadow.

This is a tittle of the Moon Shadow original series, its sequel but my point isn´t that, I´m here to say good bye.


It´s been a while I try to keep up this blog with interesting things, relevant but I think, I´m sure I failed in that attempt. I had a good intention to do this as my vehicle to communication, a place t show my writing, my ideas and like the title says, thoughts but I failed, I´m sure I did. Not on purpose, maybe my lack of experience , I´m not good with Internet stuff and maybe I am not relevant enough to post relevant stuff.


My latest blogs were only praising some friends, trying to express my feelings and just that, which I can´t call them blog material, they were good, I showed my feelings, I made my friends good and happy but how about me? Today specially, I am not happy, I made a mistake, I know I did and I was stupid enough to let my heart spoke, not good thing to be done and I break it, I deserved that and maybe it is something good, in many aspects it will make me strong and will prevent me from doing another stupidity like that.


One of those things is to see that I can´t continue doing this blog. Maybe one day, tomorrow, next week, next month or year but it is time to leave, time to close this place I need this Sabbatical, I really do and it is time . I am good with it, it´s just a see you later, I´ll return, maybe with a new blog or with this one, updated and with a new design. I will same what I wrote after all it was good, I loved the experience and everything that was written, it was sincere and genuine. True display of love, even thought pointless ones.


Good bye old Thoughts, I had fun and maybe tomorrow I change my mind, I still got some FollowFriday comics to write.


Farewell .

Happy Birthday Kathy!

Well, today is my BFF ´s birthday! I met Kathy some time ago, back when I still was going to Law and Order:CI forum which I have plans to return to post, I still love the series but it´s not about that, it is about Kathy.


Since my first contact with Kathy, we became good friends, but after some short time, indeed was sort, we became good friends and I knew she wasn´t just another forum buddy, she became a fantastic friend, a true BFF.


Some time passed since our first chat and I can say we are still BFF, which sometimes can be difficult to manage in that crazy Internet world but we pretty can continue to talk and be great friend. She helped me several times and still help, I can´t believe how she was able to put up with me sometimes but she was, she always was there for me, and still is, even when I look totally hopeless, she can find time to help me, to say some courageous words and open my eyes. I helped her too, not as much as she helped me because she is too wise but I helped her, I was there fr her or when it was just a post or a hello, she is fantastic!


I still have the opportunity to meet her in reason but I will one day but it really doesn´t matter, she is so nice and accepted me just the way I am that is a bless, I´m blessed to have a friend like her, to have the pleasure to be part of her life but one day I will meet her, we´ll have a fantastic time, I will meet her fantastic family, Tony, her daughter and her boys, I believe will be amazing to see her family, a family she loves and cares about like a big mama she is. You did and do a fantastic job dear, they all are adorable.


Dear Kathy, I wish you happy birthday, a day full of joy happiness, funny moments and lots and lots of presents. I can´t be at you party but I´ll be with my happiness, my love and my joy, because since we met, you are more than just a friend, you are my BFF. Thanks for being my BFF Kathy, next year,I´ll be at your party.

One Second.

One second is plaint of time to realize that something we said was wrong, even if it´s perfectly the truth. But It took me one second to see it.


When I showed you that, I saw that it was a mistake, not to show you but to write that. Indeed you are right, I´m special, if I wasn´t , I wouldn´t met you or even be your friend.


My intention was put those bad feelings out of my chest, out of my system and indeed they are totally out and I thank you for read that and for those fantastic words you said, helping me once again.


I hope, tomorrow I can re-read it and laugh of my crazy reaction, in fact my crazy initiative to write that horrible thing and I wish I wasn´t but in fact, it helped me a lot to see that I´m not horrible, I´m a fine and good person.


You asked me to not write but I did the opposite, don´t worry, I had to show how I was wrong and once again, you helped me. Next time, I´ll write another one, just for you sweetie pie, one which I´ll tell once again how much you are special and how much I love you and how much your friendship means and matters to me but I can say I´ll not have plaint of words to say it because I can´t express how you are fantastic.



See ya, miss ya and live ya sweetie pie. Tell Lassie I miss her.

Once Upon A Time

Once upon a time, there was a very sad boy named Claudio. He lived in a far away land called Rio and after some sad moments in his life, the boy named Claudio decided to start playing a game, in fact, several games to clean his mind from those bad moments. He joined a site, a facebook site, where he could meet new people and play those games and done that, he started his journey into the exciting world of facebook and its games.

Everyday, the boy named Claudio entered there and played his games, like a type of religion, but one day, we found out he had to add more friends to his farm, so, he went to the game´s page and there were a variety of friends, asking to be part of any farm but the boy named Claudio, just saw one, a girl, which called his attention, he felt something... good about the girl and he decided to add her as friend and later neighbor. He thought it would be like the other neighbors, no contact but like he felt, it was different, totally different.

One day, the boy named Claudio decided to call his new friend for a chat and she accepted and since the first hi, he knew it was more than just a hi, he was sure it was more than just a hi and a little chat, a friendship has just begun.

The girl named Lindsay was so nice, so sweet, even though they never met before but was like an instantly connection, something that was meant to be, and from that day on, a friendship has been born. Almost everyday, the two of them talked, shared their happy moments,

also discovered things about each other, and of course, they shared his bad days and events as well. One thing that both has in common is, they always try to help each other, with a word, a gesture or with a big smile. The boy named Claudio was happy, so happy he could met what he´s been looking for, someone who was there for him, someone who cared about him, his sweetie pie friend.
The boy´s heart was alive again, after all, it needed only a special person, who could filled it with love and Lindsay was that person, everyday she treated the boy named Claudio well, and one day, they decided to talk on the phone too, which for the boy was a problem because his phone decided to not help and every since, he fights against it to make a call but those are so good that it´s worth, no matter how difficult to make but he knows she will answer and both will have a great time on the phone.

Not only he loves Sweetie pie, but he also love his other friend, Lassie. Lassie is so beautiful and everytime she listens to the boy´s voice, she feels happy, wages his tail and farts in the girl named Lindsay´s face, showing how much she loves her. The boy is very lucky, to have two amazing and extraordinary friends. He know that, no matter what he does, good or bad, he can relay on her, she will always be around for him, with a smile, a song or just a conversation. The boy named Claudio will visit the girl´s kingdom soon, he counts the hours for the trip and he knows, he´ll finally can see what he already know, her stunning beauty. The boy named Claudio is the happiest boy on Earth, you know why, because he has his sweetie pie on his side.

The End.

This is just a little way to tell how I met Lindsay and how, after that day i became her friend and how much fun I have with her. I adore you sweetie pie, you are fantastic and so sweet, extraordinary and fantastic. That´s why you live in my heart Lindsay and no matter the distance, difficulties, you will always be my sweetie pie friend.

Love ya, miss ya and see ya!!! Byyyyeeeee!

Once Again, I Almost Destroyed Something Good In My Life.

Yesterday, once again, I almost destroyed something really important in my life but I have to be glad and thank her for being that friend she is and forgive me for that bad thing I did.


I was wrong, totally, specially after her efforts to save me, to put out that misery I was so overwhelmed and dominated but once again, I did the opposite, I let that misery affects and dominates me, like the fool I always am. My biggest mistake was to hear what she said and fear that she might not care about me, because I felt that, I really did, I could felt that on her voice, and once again, I fear, to lose what I care the most, what I appreciate the most , her friendship.


I faced so many losses in my life, not to mention that I also caused so many horrible things to others and I also killed so many friendships and that possibility, to not be able to see or talk to her affected me and I let sorrow took over me. After I helped my mom, I set and felt like I was fading away, like my soul was trying to leave my body and waited to call her.


But my luck smiled at me again, thanks to my horrible phone, which decided to be a good boy and works, I could be able to talk to her, to express my feelings, my fears and to once again, say sorry, which she is totally bored of listening it but she did, once again, she forgave me, not that what happened was something so bad but because I was sorry and afraid to lose her.

I cried, while I waited to call her, I really did, because I didn´t know what might happen, because I was a horrible person, I thought: If she never answers my calls again? If she never reads my twitters again? if she forgets me forever? All that rushed into my brain, like horses on a race I felt myself get tired, o f me, of being such horrible individual, for let others to control me, to dominate me and to hurt my adorable sweetie pie, which I could or think about the possibility to be apart from her, to not laugh with her, to listen to her special song, which makes me so happy and smile on the other side of the phone, not to mention, which I can´t forget, my other lovely friend Lassie, which I just knew she gets happy only from listen my voice, I love you Lassie, I really do my dear.

Well, I think I said enough or I´ll cry again, but I can´t help myself, I´m already crying while I´m writing this and I´m proud of expressing my feeling, to say I was wrong and I knew I was so, I can , at least, to say ... I promised I would not say so, I´ll keep my promise but you are aware that I regret that, you was, is and always will be right, no more mistakes, no more sorrows and from this moment one, I´ll be that person you met, that one you became friends and I wait you continue to be my fan, to check what I write and don´t be afraid, when I need help, say, help me, I know but I feared for our friendship, to once again, not be able to know your opinion about me, about my things and... I can´t do it, I have to stop for a while, sorry.

Well, I´m good, so, I love you sweetie pie, you is and always will be my best friend, confident and beloved because I´ve never expected to meet someone, a angel like you on Farmville so, thanks for being my friend and for allow me into your life.

See, ya, miss ya and love ya,

From a fool who adores you.