My Dearest Kathy.

Last Wednesday, I faced one of the darkest time of my life, which was so many that I can tell all of them by heart but this one really affected me, really made me so sad that I actually cried in from of the computer, I almost lost my best friend Kathy.


I hurt her heart and I know that, it was m fault, I admit but I also did it with no intention, but I hurt her, I tried to help her, I tried to avoid some bad people to attack her, which was something constant but instead of that I made what I should never have don, I attacked her and I broke her heart. I tried to make her see that I was guilt, but at a level I was, I made my BFF bad, something that I never thought I could do, but I did.


I felt, through all her posts she was suffering but I was too, with the uncertainty that she could believe me, that my intentions were just to help but in the end it only made her badder than she was already, and I was crazy believing I could lose her friendship, which is so important to me, since our first PM, we started that amazing friendship relation, which I always was thanked that it happened, for me, to help me facing some horrible moments I´ve been facing and with all her PM messages and gifs always made my day way better, as well as those that I sent her but at that time, I was afraid I would never get them again, not to mention any other PM form someone so important to me.


I could feel how she was suffering in each and every word she wrote, something that was hurting me a lot and for what? Nothing, just a stupid post I made and a birthday PM I sent to a bad person, how stupid I was, how horrible I was to someone so important, so amiable and the most important, my friend. Something that I will regret for the rest of my life, imagine not be able to talk to my close friend because of something so stupid but it was almost happening, even with my effort to prevent that but the damage was done and no way to turn back the clock and undo those things.


I was luck enough she returned my PM and talked to me, after all, after what I have done, it was something, I could stop asking for forgiveness, how sorry I was and how I regret the things I´ve done but I know she was sorry to, for what I have done to her, the way I treated her and how I made her cry, but how she could forgive me, specially after those things but she still, just like me fighting for something so special, our friendship, trying to understanding why I did what i did and so do I. I posted and posted and so she did too, trying to keep the friendship alive and I was trying to make her see that I still was her friend, even after those mistakes.


I´m not sure she will one day forgive but she is still talking to me, she still believes that our friendship can survive after those dark moments and I can say I´m happy for that, not for what I did but with her to be so nice to accept me again, to still answer my PM and more important, talk to me. I´ve learned my lesson, I almost lost my BFF and as I said, for nothing, she even asked for an advice, which she always asked and I always was and am pleased to help but for a long moment, I thought she would not come to me for help again, what a fool I was and I can´t stop saying that, not a moment. I still feeling she is hurt but I don´t want she feels that way, not anymore, that´s why I am writing this, to make her feel better, to know she is important to me and I will never act that way again, not after I almost lost her, not anymore so Kathy, forgive me, I know I don´t deserve but you was brave enough to fight for our friendship, the way I fought too fir still talking to me, with was also important, even facing that would never be possible again.


I love you Kathy, you are important to me and always will be, I hope we can be friends forever and BFF to be true, I was wrong, I hurt you but I was hurt too, knowing I could even talk to you is something that I can´s face, not you, not my close friend, and I´ll send you gifs because I know you love those and maybe will take a long time but you will trust me again because as I said you are important to me, in so many ways and I can´t and won´t let our friendship dies. I hope I didn´t talked to much so, one one thing, I mean two things I will say:


Kisses and Hugs from your BFF.


Claude.