Dreams.

Dreams are what most of us have, specially in regards of things we want to accomplish, I have mine, specially in becoming something different from what I am right now, at least better than I am.


Today I received two rejection letters from publishing houses about my novels, Those really affected me, I had high hopes and plans but I saw that won´t be possible right now so, I have to postponed it again, maybe to a near future or it´s something that I´m just thinking or pretending to make this a little less bad than is supposed to be.


Some time ago, I posted in a forum about something that just happened to me, It seems a little far fetched but It´s totally true. I was going to lunch and I met, by chance a High School friend, not really a friend, we talked and stuff but not I could call him a friend. he recognized me, we started talking but I had no intention to, I just did just to not look a bad or impolite person. We started talking and he asked me what I was doing and stuff, I said and he came with that, if I remembered what he dreamt of being, all his life, I had no idea, no recollection of that conversation and he dropped the bomb, he was a porn actor. Whoa! Again, I had no idea having this conversation with him, but I pretended and he told me about, that he always wanted that, after school he pursued that dream and now he was a porn actor. For me, that was nothing, the fact that he told me that, after a long time without any contact was the astonishing thing, not about his career.


I felt incredibly uncomfortable and my only desire was getting out of there, as long as possible and he came with a list of movies that he acted and asking me If I could watch to see that was true. Of course I said I would, just to get his face out of mine, but he continued talking until the time I said I was going to a meeting and it was much important. He gave me his phone and I gave his a phony one and I went away, as well as he did . I have no idea if it´s true but if it is, his dream came true and he can be happy about it.


I really want to feel that way, to be happy to see my efforts to do something different, original work out, to reach success, maybe I´m just one of the ordinary and average guys, like most of but I´ll continue and maybe like my "friend" I can see, after run into some other friend that I´m a writer, a famous one would be excellent.